Mornin' :)

Sun is shining, hopfully thats a good sign ~ Stephen has his first soccer scrimage today :) I love watching him play soccer, he is SO good at it!! Big field this year so lets see how his endurance holds up :)

Hunter had his 18 months check yesterday, he grew thankfully, we were worired since he hadnt grown the recent apmnt. He did however loose weight and doc was concerned so we'll see how his next apmnt goes. I think it is 'cause he is on the go more and not self feeding as well so we'll see sometimes. Sometimes he eats great, other times he picks and doesnt finish even though he is hungry. Screamed when doc examined him and it was difficult to calm him but the rest of the time he did great :) Doc said his nephew has ASD, said when he read the report it reminded hm of his nephew. We reviewed the ASD report and he was in agreement with the developmental doc :) Love this doc, he is the best!!

Yesterday was two weeks since my sis went to heaven. My heart still hurts so much ~ I just cant believe it. With my mom the pain hurt as much but I was able to "believe" it. With Jamie I am having a really hard time believing this is real. Only 7 months ago she was fine and healthy, or so we thought :( I miss her so much.......

My best friend Renee invited me to go to Bunko with her last night, was very nice to meet all the ladies she plays with. Many are moms at our elementary school so I did recognize them. I had a great time but I had trouble not thinking about my sis. When I played Bunko last Jamie was with me as it was her bunko group I played with. :( Sadly the evening was cut short though when Daniel called me having "heart Pain". He was crying on the phone so I went home. He was on kid duty and he did great :) I guess Stephen was goofing off (I'm sure there are two sides to this story, lol) and Daniel was yelling at him and the chest pain started after. I felt so bad but there is one thing good that may come of it ~ maybe he will now realize how we feel when we have to yell at him and it causes us pain, and grey hair!! ((())) Dan is fishing at the marina for the weekend so when I got home Daniel and I just hung out a bit and watched some tv :) Super Nanny, one of our fav shows! :) All in all it was nice to get out ~ having trouble being social lately with groups of people but I know its good for me ~ loosing my mom was so painful and I miss her terribly but this loss is so much different and painful just the same... so hard to explain ~ I guess maybe cause I never expected to be loosing my sis when I was almost 42 and she 48. That shouldnt be happening for at least 20-30 plus more years. Sigh...